We just left the office of one of the best Pediatric Urologists in the country, Dr. Roth at Texas Children’s Hospital, and he highly recommends Alexa has surgery right away given her high grade of reflux, deathly severe Cyclosporine allergy, and our extensive traveling work schedule. I am slightly relieved to have a resolution, yet horribly terrified of my baby girl going through surgery. What if… *glup*… what if something goes terribly wrong?!?! The surgery is similar to a c-section, (minus the uterus slicing and pulling an 8 lb+ child out). The surgeon will put her to sleep, slice her open across her lower abdomen, correct both valves in the tubes leading from her bladder to her kidneys, and stitch her up with dissolvable stitches. The procedure takes about an hour and a half and has a 3 week recovery time. My heart is breaking into pieces knowing the pain she will have to endure and worse, she won’t understand why. I need to be positive, fearless, and strong for her. I feel a strong pull to understand and draw on the powers of healing energy from the inside out and the outside in. Reiki, meditation, light therapy, raw organic live foods, yoga, massage, laughter are all begging me to know them better. The surgery will most likely, and symbolically, be this Spring… the season of blossoming birth, life anew.
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